F this!!

Shit la dang, they should put A level papers on saturday too!! Ok, I studied on sat becuz I went to meet Glen... Sunday was totally shit... Today was even shittier... Watched like so many shows today I completely never even touch chem up to now gosh... Bloody hell... I get distracted easily, like seriously... During O level period, I was like thinkin about like about a lot of random stuff, until I stumbled upon wes culwell. I'll never forget his quote and arghh!!! Have to keep that in mind as I struggle through this period... I have this feeling that studying's not fun... argh!! What a time for that feeling to come shit shit shit!!!

On the other hand, the shows I watched were nice yay =) Lots of cute ppl =)

A Levels

Gosh, it's soooo long since I've blogged and yay I'm over it yay!!

Anyway, A levels started and it's soooo fun la, like seeing everyone doing the exams and talking abt it lol... Tho I'm super scared for GP... hope I can get A or at the most most most most B... Choy...

Now mugging for econs xianed...

Sighed...

Sighed... I can feel that feeling again, the feeling that I experienced b4 with only about 4 ppl I think? Hmmm... Yupz... Haha sigh... Wrong time wrong time wrong side wrong side... Xianed...

Update time!!

OMG I just realised that I can ONLY study outside la, unless of course prelim's the next day... Gosh la, u know I went airport study with ppl can do about 10 hrs worth of work, at home... Saturday, sunday did nothing... Monday did about 3 hrs haha yesterday did 6 hrs and today a mind blowing 4 hrs.... OMG La... What's happening to me?!?!?!?

Must be Boys Over Flowers haha, I know it's like soooo late to watch it and I'm like sooo slow but OMG it's soooo nice la... Actually the plot is quite lame, but the ppl are beautiful!!

I dunno y so many ppl think Jun Pyo is hot, like OMG I think he's quite fugly, and Ji Hoo the other guy looks sooooo gay... I thought he was gay in the show at first zomg... The only cute person is Yi Jung!!! Kim Bum in real life. He's only 2 years older than us la... Yet he looks sooo charimastic and everything =)

And my sister loves BOF too she watched like nearly the whole thing alr but I forced myself to stop cuz of stupid prelims heh... And she bought this deck of BOF cards, lol...

K... So anyway for prelims I think I'm pretty screwed for maths and econs, unless by some saving grace I actually manage to sit down and clock 10 hours of work a day for the next 5 days... Last time I touched maths was 2 weeks, econs was 3 weeks... Oh wellz...

After reading more and more about US uni stuff, I feel more compelled to go there instead of NUS... I totally regretted not taking any art subjects in upper sec, and to a certain extent regret not going arts or at least taking lit or sth liddat... I mean seriously, I'm sure our art friends can read our bio notes and make sense of it whereas lit and history is like a skill. You can't learn to speak and write well in just 1 month... Oh wellz... So yea, maybe it's my last chance to do this artsy stuff again in uni... Obviously NUS can't provide me with that opportunitiy...

Lalala wandering around in life now... So random la...

Kim Bum!!!

Lalala

K... I hate studying on weekends, so I forced myself to study by meeting Glen on saturday haha... He woke up at 11 when we were supposed to meet at 11... ZZZ... Coffee Bean at Millenia Walk has like sooo many hot ppl la... And I told Glen how irritated I am when the guy in the relationship is much better looking than the girl, becuz the girl is supposed to bully the guy and get gifts from him, in return she's supposed to act pretty and make the guy feel good about himself. That's y I CAN"T STAND couples with ugly girls and hot guys...

Anyway, sunday was totally rubbish la... Woke up at 1, went to tuition, went church and then watched snakes on the plane...

Today, I went shopping!! Lalala so fun OMG... It's the best when u go alone, cuz u can buy whatever u want without ppl complaining and making such a big fuss... you can go whatever shops you want to without waiting for ppl lalalalalala so funn...

And Singapore Idol 3 is here! OMG So exciting la... I tot this guy called Ryan is quite interesting, and apparently ppl just judge him just based on what they see on TV. Gosh if you don't know him then just shut the fhuck up and find out more can? Like pls... Obviously the TV will dramatise things up and angle in on the dramamama side of ppl... Dude, I know u don't take GP so u wouldn't understand that Mediacorp wants to make money and the only way is to attract viewership like duh? And by attracting viewerships they have to create all these dramamama to make stupid ppl like you attracted to the TV. Gosh...

Furthermore, if you wish to make a point, pls give your argument and reasoning. Again I know you guys don't take GP so you wouldn't know how to argue. So nvm. Stupid trucks...

It's like the GP lecture I attended on sunday, where Mr Tong the lecturer was laughing at how stupid the replies of these stupid ppl are in response to some gay video on youtube. This just shows how "educated" singaporeans are... Sigh...

I hate stupid ppl... Gosh, get a proper grammar book and learn how to spell right, then learn how to articulate your thoughts properly so that normal ppl like me can understand what rubbish you're trying to say... Gosh, I really do hate stupid ppl...

Random

So ya, I haven't been blogging for soo long becuz I'm soo lazy... And ppl are starting to mug like crazy it's so crazy I tell you... And I'm sooo not mugging becuz I dunno y, I just can't concentrate... Must be like 1-2 weeks before exam then mug. It's like 5 more weeks to prelims and everyone is chionging like mad already... Nvm, I shall still stick to my principles. CHIONG 2 weeks before and study slowly now... Or else will just burn out. This tactic works for me since sec 3 so whatever... I believe in you! But still, seeing everyone mugging, especially the not so hardworking ones is still so depressing...

Yesterday was the scholarship program thing and Polar Bear talked to me!! Polar Bear looks soooooooo cute close up, especially the specs =) Ok, but it was like small talk and everything but who cares? Plus I saw cute ppl, and today's tuition got 1 more cute person yay! From HCJC I think... Last time I thought was RJC so stalked sooo long on facebook but can't find... Now trying to find on facebook but facebook's closed or sth!! Damit...

Cut hair today, bought a new shaver, and slacking... Changing specs this monday I think, or tuesday, or after BDD next week.

Uni plans... Hmmm... I think I will apply to some very very good US universities. Reason being is that I'd rather study in Singapore than a not so good US uni... So taking SAT subject tests soon... Math Chem & Bio... Time to take out secondary bio textbook cuz there's a lot on human physiology... Ahh time to read campbell again...

I think scholarship talk yesterday made me think. I really don't think I should join the government service becuz seriously, being unique can complicate matters alot. Especially blackmailing and stuff... On the other hand, I would be able to make a difference and change the mindset of fellow Singaporeans if I do manage to succeed within the government service. Think think think... But still, my parents can afford to sent me to US so maybe scholarships won't really be needed.

Sigh...

Mixture

Life has been a mixture lately, a mix of studies, higher education, scholarships, crushes and like everything mixed together...

CT2 went relatively well for me even though I hardly studied as hard as I should. So I guess I'm not expecting much oso, just borderline grades I hope, not expecting to top anything again.

And there are just soo many higher ed stuff to consider it's becoming 1 big mess. Sigh, I have to like consolidate everything together but it's just sooo much... For now, it's either Singapore NUS Med or the US for me...

And then there's the irritating factor of not knowing a person's inclinations. My radar stopped working since forever and it's just soooo dam irritating... Sighs... But like whatever la...

And now I have to do some stupid bloody organic mindmap which would probably take hours to do... And I haven't bought the stupid bloody board to do it, and I have no freaking idea why we must do some stupid organic mindmap when I'm not ever going to use it... Like whatever la, it's not like there are 1000 reactions to memorise, it's only like 100 at the most, and it's not like we don't know them by now... And even we don't, it's not like we can remember all of them by staring at some stupid mindmap, you have to learn the reactions chapter by chapter and not staring at a bloody mess of reactions... Oh well... And to think this counts for 2% in our prelims... I just calculated, I'll need 72 to get A for prelims if I don't do this stupid organic mindmap thing... So like who freaking cares...

And OMG y am I so pissed off at this mindmap thingy? I dunno... I guess I just want my life to be straightened ( not literally) out and like see things more clearly... But apparently I'm not in the right frame of mind to do this...

And what's with Love of Siam being M18, for goodness sake it's just 2 guys kissing and that's all. Wah lau just cut the scene off and make it NC16 la... It's not like we wanna watch the movie just for the making out scene... And I can't go with like other frens becuz they're like even younger than me... ZZZ... Maybe I'll ask other frens but it'll be like sooo weird... Oh well.

Sigh...

CT2 = DIE!

OMG... Ok so I just finished the ENTIRE bio tested for CT2 today... The pace was fast for the first few days, in fat many ppl was wondering how I studied so fast haha... It's quite easy actually, since I already understood what it meant last year, all I have to do is just read through. If u don't already understand it, then of course u need a few hours becuz u have to answer all your doubts. Thus, I took like 2 days just to complete viruses + applications A and B since I've never touched it in my life hahaha... And when I looked through the past bio common test papers, OMG so hard...

Totally xianed out... I think I might have reached saturation point already, where I'm unable to mug the entire syllabus in 1 day... Like O level was super stupid as I could mug the whole bio in like 14 hours... Chem took me 9 hours I think... Now for bio I think I'll take about I dunno... 2 days? DIE!! Luckily syllabus ending soon...

Back to organic chem now zzz...

Yay!

Ok.. Today was the National Economics & Financial Management Quiz 2009!! Yay.. So I woke up in the morning having slept only 5 hours.. And then went to sch and mugged a bit more, then went to NUS... GOSH! The testing conditions were so cheatable la, but we didn't cheat of course. Ended up we got into the finals yay! OMG It was sooo exciting becuz like the finalists were like RJ, HC, Dunman High and us!

Haha so we were leading for the first 2 rounds, then got whacked like mad by Dunman who kept throwing all the questions to us.. So ended up was 3rd. But whatever, we won $500 yay! Though all are going to school but whatever la haha, got trophy oso yay! At least we won hwa chong haha...
Haha and my teamates rocks! Su Ann is like so proo at all the econs stuff, and Kai Zong is just proo at everything... Feel so stupid sometimes haha..

Actually this competition made me like econs once again. Bonds, shares, stocks bla bla is actually quite fun.. Shall comteplate taking econs or like business stuff in uni... But then again, sigh... SATs were out... While it is a competitive score, I guess I still won't be able to apply to the school that I want...

Hmmmm... NUS medicine? Or just try and see... Ahhh so demoralising...

And OMG that day we watched transformers OMG SOOOOOO nice lah!! Shia Labeouf =) And megan fox quite pretty oso haha...

OMG!

NEW YORK - "Twilight" star Robert Pattinson was hit by a taxi in New York as he tried to run away from a crowd of hysterical teenage fans, but he was not seriously injured, U.S. media reported.

Flanked by five security guards, the British actor tried to run past a group of teenage girls who had gathered outside the bookstore and cross the street to his trailer when the accident happened.

Like OMG!! When I saw the title I was like SHIT!! Argh stuipd crazy girls...

Anyway, week 3 of hols is like so mugger can... Monday - wednesday, nearly finished chem and maths.. Supposed to finish on thursday but thursday and today I never do work at all haha... Supposed to do kinetics for like 2 days already... Becuz I was like searching for uni stuff... Arghh cannot make up my mind between NUS medicine, or US uni haha... Oh well hope I can make up my mind soon...

I WILL finish chem and maths tmr I don't care!!

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Ok. Today all I did was proteins and enzymes ahhh!! took only 2 hours for that shit... Mugged econs quiz stuff for a while... Then go eat eat eat... Shit when I'm bored I eat a lot a lot... Took so many ice-cream, biscuits, lychees...

But considering my schedule, H3 + chalet, I guess it's ok la... Forgivable.

Anyway, today had class outing but couldn't make it sooo sadded...

Anyway, I'm feeling like totally weird la... This feeling sucks. I wish he would stop playing around and act clearly... Oh man... This feeling sucks!!

JTS + New Emotions

So the past like 2 days I think was JTS haha... Quite fun, but so many J1s left it was just a J2 thing after that at night... Felt a bit weird at certain times but who cares...

Yiyong saw a shooting star while we were all at the beach so we all made a wish. Xian... After the wish I was so sadded... I made the same wish again when we were blowing bubbles, and blowing the candles of the cake. No one except bitch friend 1 and bitch friend 2 will ever know what wish I made hahaha Sadded...

Sadded.

O and sean told us such an interesting story OMG soooo funny!!! We laughed until the neiboughing chalets all looked at us weirdly...

And I didn't sleep for like nearly 2 days, and so I slept from like yesterday 4pm to like this morning 11am... My mother woke me up to eat dinner but I didn't want to and returned to sleep.

Now chionging AQ + GP compo for tuition haha...

Yet to start on any H2 stuff... Week 1 was completely mugging for H3 + play to the max... Week 2 is JTS, hangover, urban hike and study 1 day maybe on sunday... Tmr got 4B outing again yay! But I might not go becuz I hate kboxing... Going for dinner only I guess...

And so... Now with new emotions that I have to deal, I have to put them into a box, stuff them into the closet and when I'm feeling ready, open it and deal with it... When I have time... Oh wells, yay.